52 Weeks: Week 38

I had fun playing with photos today, and I liked the way this made me APPEAR to be tough, self-assured, and confident. I WISH I had as much confidence as it appears...I guess if you "fake it" long enough it will begin to become true! :) At times, I am proud of my accomplishments and feel that I can do anything I set out to do in the future. At other times, I feel silly to dream such big dreams and wonder, who am I to be able to do such a thing! When I see others doing what I dream of doing, I think...if they can do it, so can I...BUT then I also begin to doubt myself and begin to rationalize why things work out for some and not for others. I truly wish I could build a strong and true core of confidence. One that doesn't waver so much and feel so insecure at times. I THINK I will begin to feel more and more confident as I accomplish more and more goals on my way to reaching my ultimate goals. I think success breeds success, and I my confidence will grow with each success, no matter how small. Sometimes I picture myself in the future living my ultimate dream life. On a good day, I think...that is EXACTLY how it will be and I CAN do it! On a bad day, I laugh at myself for being such a dreamer and tell myself that I need to "get real." When I have more good days than bad, and when I truly believe that I am capable of doing what I dream of doing, then I will become a "confident woman." Until then, I guess I'll just have to "fake it" and try to convince myself that " I CAN do it"! :)